Clock wall: A fun photo I took at the Conran shop in Paris
I have two big events happening this week. Neither is within my control. One is definitely cause to celebrate (and also time to reflect), while the other is a little unnerving. I think the latter might also be cause to celebrate, but right now it doesn't feel that way at all.
I have been on an emotional roller coaster all weekend and a physical one too, because my back is out. I have a very bad and high-maintenance back. I had a great yoga class Saturday which turned into terrible pain by evening because it aggravated an SI joint problem I've been having. And my beloved chiropractor is in Japan until next week! Today I was barely able to walk and laid most of the day on ice packs. My whole back is seized and I'm having a blistering headache to go with it. Back episodes often flare up my headaches.
What a joyful way to start my big week. Not.
I've been doing a lot of thinking about both events that are occuring this week. It's funny how life changes. Time keeps ticking by, and life passes whether you are ready or not, or whether you achieve what you set out to. Sometimes (a lot of times) things happen to us that are beyond our control and we are supposed to roll with it. Often, that sucks. Sometimes these experiences make us grow, and other times, they make us fail and falter and want to hide in our beds. Often lately, I want to hide in my bed.
I know exactly who I am, but somehow I am unsure how to actualize all that I want in life. I have been thinking about this a lot lately, and no matter what Oprah preaches, fulfilling yourself is a damn sight harder than it looks.
I will fill you in Tuesday on the first big change....